Before I Go Any Further, You Should Know This

A reintroduction of who I am and the story that's led me here

Hi, I’m Nathan. I want to introduce myself, but not in the way I once would have. Not with my credentials or accomplishments, but with the truth of how I lost myself—and how I found something far greater.

For most of my life, I was ruled by my need to be accepted, seen, and celebrated. I grew up in the competitive dance world, where everything was measured by right and wrong, good and bad, worthy and unworthy. I trained obsessively, pushing my body past exhaustion, ignoring its pain, all in pursuit of perfection.

I abandoned myself in countless ways—altering my voice, shrinking my truth, dimming my power—just to fit in. Deep down, I was lost. I didn’t know who I was, only who I was supposed to be.

Juilliard was the first crack in the illusion. A place where I discovered creativity beyond judgment. I got sober. I immersed myself in Kundalini yoga. I started unraveling the conditioning that had bound me for so long. But even then, I was grasping for approval, shape-shifting between the desire to belong and the urge to rebel.

And then, in 2019, my world shattered.

My father died suddenly. The foundation I had been standing on disappeared overnight. Grief swallowed me whole and sent me spiraling onto an unexpected path—a pilgrimage to Egypt, where something I never could have planned awaited me.

In the sacred temples, beneath the weight of ancient stone and silence, I had an awakening with the Goddess Isis. In my deepest despair, I felt something vast moving through me—a force greater than my pain, greater than my past, a divine orchestration guiding me into the fires of transformation.

I thought I had already lost everything. But life wasn’t done stripping me bare.

Just as I was preparing to move to LA—to finally step fully into my creative dreams—I got severely ill.

For 2.5 years, I couldn’t dance, perform, or create. Everything I had built was taken away. But in that stillness, I saw the truth:

I had been chasing validation from a world that never truly saw me.

I had sacrificed my health and happiness to belong to something that was never meant for me. My body refused to move for anything that wasn’t healing, liberating, or true.

Illness purified me. It broke the last chains I had been holding onto.

And finally, I was free.

Dance had always been my path of self-discovery. But after the death of my father, Egypt, and illness, it became something more—a sacred ritual, a portal to liberation.

I found myself dancing alone in the redwoods for hours, letting movement strip away my stories, my judgments, my resistances.

I became a conduit for the divine.

And that, in essence, is the story of my life: surrendering to the life force, letting it move through me, and offering it in service to all beings.

Now, I help others navigate their own transformations.

Through spiritual life coaching, devotional dance, and sacred art, I guide people through life transitions, grief, illness, creative blocks, and the path to self-discovery—not as obstacles, but as initiations into power.

Every challenge is a sacred process of death and rebirth.

The work is about surrendering so completely that there is nothing left to hold onto—until you become the thing you were always seeking. Until your life merges into greater service, and the healing gifts that are inherently yours awaken in their total radiance.

I have many offerings in the works, but for now, I’m accepting one-on-one clients.

If this speaks to you, let’s connect.
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With love,
Nathan